Confused, Concerned

I hate it when it happens to me..,
i get tensed while driving my car and feel like i'm driving for the first time in my life,

it's caused by a feeling i get once in a while, i get a bit worried about my current condition and/or about my future, i also think that most people i front with are weird, or acting weird,

when i'm in a situation like this it's mostly cause i'm worried about a future screw up and have practically no one who can stand by me and get me a confidence boost while i'm at it,
i know i know, it's kind of pathetic :D, but beleive it or not i get lonely alot of times, and mostly cause i can't find any real friends who can actually listen to me and my concerns..,

now i have that MOS course thing i gotta attend in a couple of days and my lovely coordinator didn't give me a call about the mandatory english test,

so maybe i'm screwed and maybe not, i didn't have big problems when i was in a pay per course tech institute before, i actually attended the last one after a whole month of it's beginning, but it was nothing really, mostly "keyboarding", introduction to pc and internet for beginners, and they didn't have any exams for those,

i passed A+ (pc engineering) in a snap wich was a "combo" along with the MCSE course package, but when we started the actual thing i noticed that i didn't get jack when it came to understanding the whole concept of networking, wich was all about microsoft's point of view at networking, all about the user database and the microsoft network,

like admiring a self centered know it all (wich i doubt), 9 big fat 300+ page catalogues that they called books, and poor knowledged teachers or whatever they're called, wich 70% of them were actually A+ students at the damn institute,

so they practically had no idea of the concept of lecturing and interaction with the class, total faliure of an institute that had a reputation with company executives and managers that i heard they used to go to that same newhorizons institute, totally made them as low reputated as the small unknown tech institutes of kuwait.


wow, i wrote all that?, lol i guess i had lots of my mind being concerned about my future and wasted money on that other institute wich is called infocenter, they have a good reputation now,
every one i know that used to go there recommended it, but i was shocked about the fact that it is co-ed, but in a different way than newhorizons, girls to the right and boys to the left (hah, like that makes a difference).

wish me luck people, i hope i get past this in a breeze..